Neverending Fantasy

Moshi Moshi !

Guess whatt ? I top up alreadyy!! Happy horr, It's been so long since I use my own number to text people. Hahaha! So now, don't have to depend on my mummy's phone anymore. All this thanks to daddy ((: Thankyou, arigato. Hee~

And sad thing is that we don't get to go Malaysia this month, family problems. Haiyo. Pity my father sehh. He has done so much good deeds and this is what he get. Just hope everything goes well in the end. And another bad news, some peeps may not make it to East Coast next Friday . Sad, hopefully all can make it. It'a been my family tradition somehow , that 25 december will be having family gathering either at east coast, pasir ris but rarely changi.

And, tomorrow morning meeting T at her block at go for jogging((: then, at 10 going for guides in the afternoon if I'm not too late going to IKEA with family. New furniture i guess ? I mean, Our next house will be super small, and all our current stuff are so gigantic , how can it possibly fit in? They n=might be selling them and buying new ones? lol Or maybe just window shop ? hah!

I was thinking of showing a bit more feminine side next year. I mean, I always thought of myself being rude, always teasing, disturbing people laughing my ass out. I know, I should be myself. But I want to try. haha! If I feel uncomfortable, then i just go back to my original self, maybe a trial for just a week. hee~

Then i thought, should I use my backpack or my sis the one you wear like handbag. but Mj said that I don't go with the handbag thing. Well, just have to use my bagpack . Hopefully that other school girl don't use it too. If same bag i don't mind but I hate it when same bag then the other party will be like " * roll eyes* ehh, kpo sia that gurl. Wth sehh" then everytime see me roll eyes. Pfft! Reality check. Your not the only one who can own that design of bag. -.-"

Andd, PARAMORE COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!

hahaa! wee~ Just have to save up .

That's what I heard.

Bye peeps!

MOSHI MOSHI !

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Another Japanese movie that I watched last night at Okto ^^,called Check it out, yo! It's a nice show horr. I don't know why I like to watch Japanese show all this , hahaha.
Well, Hiro still stole my heart . Even though there's this guy in this movie called Toru is quite attractive but does not really caught my attention.. Hahaha. Lols Yesterday had this walk jog organised by CC. The excercise is very useful. And it helps me get rid of some fats, somehow. I don't think I lost any weight when all I do is eat. Don't be surprise when you guys see me when school reopens. It will shock you,that i gain so much weight over the holidays. heh ! So , MJ went to her class chalet this morning and won't be coming back till Wednesday which means , another boring week. Not just Monday to Wednesday she's out but I heard she had her plans till the end of this week. Pfft, thats leads me to more boring days to look forward to. Having a Family outing with the cousins on Christmas, as always that day. And going off to Malaysia to stay at my aunt's place somewhere this month. I'm not too sure. Better be, this month is the last month I can go overseas as my passport expires in June . -.- sadness . And this Thursday, having guides . Helping out with the Sec 1 thingy. At least there's something for me to do . I'm wondering why blogger can't upload pictures and stuff. Haiss.Just have to paste the html code from photobucket then. I can't blog without pictures. I guess. I mean, its not me. I want my blog to be pictury , if there's such word but apparently , there's no such word. Lols. You know what's weird ? That I want to lose weight but I don't get my butt of the chair or bed and work my ass out. Instead , I take whatever snacks there is, and eat while watching television. It's natural for Sheila to do this, I mean , I eat A LOT ! but , I don't want to. Like yesterday, went to Loyang Point at night with MJ and wanted to buy just Ice cream, and since Mj wanted to eat Macchicken, I got carried away and bought myself one too. Thus, after eating it, I regretted. See how hard my life is . I can't resist the temptation of food. Its really hard being me. Haha !! And see, since i'm bored, I just typed out anything that comes to mind. 'Great' huh ? -.-"
And now, nature is calling me to eat again. Pfft. When will the time comes when I won't be hungry for at least a day ?

MOSHI MOSHI !

I watched this show and cried alot at the end. This Japanese show really touches my heart. Gahh Andd guess what I'M FREAKING IN LOVE!! With this guy,

Ahhh! forget Edward or Jacob .. Although this guy ain't a super hero, but he's super sweet!! hahaa, Okay, I'm just in love with his character, Hiro . His real name is Haruma Miura. ahhh <33 Okayy, i getting overboard with this. hahaha!! K uhhh chaoo

Saddd,whyy cannot upload gambarrr??
hmmm, i really want to blog, lols..
hmm

Sometimes in life, you did some wrong sins that you regret. And when you think bad you kept on blaming yourself . You will think how bad you are, how stupid you think you are. You think back at all the things you've done. It's a sad thing really, seeing someone blaming themself, asking why they are like this, why they kept making mistakes, why can't they control they anger , why it feels like everyone hates them, why things doesn't turns out right, why everything they do is wrong in peoples eyes. When you came across these people, you can't do anything but to hear them out. You can't give advices cause you are scared it would ruin everything. Scared it will turn out wrong. When you hear them talking about their mistakes and saying that they want to be a better person but it's just that noone believe them, noone had faith in them that they can be better. Everyone can change. It's up to them to realise what they did was wrong. It's up to them to work hard on it. But with this, they need some help too. Need family support, from their loves one. But what if they don't really have a family. As in, noone treated them like family. It's really a sad thing. Maybe, people influenced people's bad habbit its because they think 'oh, if i do this no one will cares, i will trouble no one' Im not saying that this goes to all those bad influence or what so ever, im saying some people's perspective is like that, they had nothing to lose or maybe they just do things without thinking. They need more care and concern , especially from their love ones.

I don't know why I'm writing this , but i think it's because I've seen people like that. It's a sad thing actually..

Heyy yoo !

Miss me?

Hahaha ! well lets see,

Saturday; Mummy woke me up at 10, she said..' kauu tauu nakk kuar, takk tauu nakk bangun siang?' hahaha , so eventually gave me permission to go chalet.

Wee~

So yeahh, went to warney house and waited for them to get ready , then off we went ! took a taxi from her house with her brother and herself, then reached there. The taxi driver pissed me though, Weii, dahh bagus tuu kiter customer kauu, takyahh bagyy muker.Then stepped in the chalet, ehem 0.0..

Everyone settled down and one by one warney's cousin and auntie's came. Then when me and warney was washing and inserting sticks into hotdogs and crabstick, something happen.I don't want to mentioned here but it was an experience that never in my life seen before. Lol,

So we went back to work, ate alot. Hey ! the food was nice ! And got my favourite ^^,

So , atee, played cards and board games, watched a bit of jennifer's body and a bit of 2012 but sadness is that i can't hear a thing. The next door peeps were blasting damn loud music. grrr.

lols, and paramore blehh jadi paranormal activity ehh XD

hahah, inside joke, kann warneyy ?http://draft.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=845828526951162327

Sentence of the day, ' thousand years of death !'

hahaha! another inside joke

So we ate again and her cousin had booked tickets to watch new moon at the 2.45am show, only that they knew, they were the only one who booked that time. So they invited the rest of the peeps to watch. and Warney's mother wanted to treat me and warney to go watch. Happy sehh ! I thought I won't be able to catch that movie cause i was broke, but thanks to warney mother and her auntie's i did get to watch. Thnks many2 !! ^^,

So at the movies, I was likee 'AHHH!" When edward came into the picture and went drooling when saw the tranformation from long hair jacob to half naked short hair. Omg, Hey ! I'm a girl, see how manyy girls go gaga over him too. Now i'm like in Bella's position, can't choose between Edward and Jacob ..

hahaha, k then went back to the chaket and sat at the staircase and blast our earpiece. Warney and I couldn't sleep. Then blahblahblah, slept for awhile at close to 7 ? then woke up and we had the flu. Hahaha, went home and blah blahh,

So on monday, Baked cookies ! Its been long since i baked, and it went flat. 0.0 Too much butter i guess. But overall it's nice !

hee~

Today, auntie and Rafiq came !

did our usual thing , and my father just called. He said my phone is fixed !!!

ahhh~ happy nyer akuu, pii still no prepaid. 2 months no prepaid. aiyaa saddness.

So now, i want to chaoo do my chores and then drools over edward and jacob .. bYe

Sheila, going on with life and being strong.

I've decided to move on. I can't be like this forever right? I mean, its no use if I'm being like this and nothing is happenning, i'm just going to move on and focus on what's more important . So aper nak jadi jadi lahh. I will try and be more , how you say .. easy going ?

And, today later in the afternoon going to Warney's chalet ! ShamWOOHOO !

k, aku giler.

The house agent came to my house again, and darn ! Aiyaa, see my parents reaction so pityy lehh, kesian ku tengokkk. If only I can help sehh. )):

And currently chatting with abgrifqi((: Aiyaaa, miss him truckloads.

Miss those times I go watch him and Siddkorr play bowling..

Aderr2 ajerr uhh nakk tease adeq :D

So yeah, been watching korean drama and korean show..

Starting to fall for korean guys XD

kidding.

hahaha!!

K uhh, mummy ngan bising uhhh ..

GAHHH!

Bingitt!!!!!! Now she cancel my plan todayy...walaoooo .. GRRR.

K BYE!

AHHHHH !! SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS THING!! I CANT UPLOAD PICSS SEHH )):

HEY, I'm kinda bored right now, so I thought . Maybe just post some random things.

Let's see.

I'm sure all of you have made mistakes that you wished that you can just turned back the time to undo them . Or maybe say out something but you actually don't mean it . All happens in life, I get it. But what if that mistakes you did , or the words that you say, turns out to changed the whole situation in life and making it impossible to turnback or take it back until everything change. Not one can undo it. Poof !

Then when you realise what you did was absolutely out of your control, you started to crawl onto your bed sulking deeply, and thinking about what you did or what you said. You know it's impossoble to make anything better and afraid to do something that will eventually made it worse. While thinking about it, your eyes started to go blur thus, flowing tears till your cheeks get wet. In the end , you started crying. All hopes are lost.

Then you snuggled up your pillow and hugged them as tight as you can towards your body still sobbing and in the end, you fell sleep.

Woke up the next day with something blocking your thoughts. The effects when you were all night crying till you fell asleep. Went to do your daily routine, and just when you wanted to do this routine of yours, something prevented you from it. You remembered that the mistakes or the words you did or said prevented you from doing that. You know if you have done that routine of yours, it will only make things worse or that person you did or said to won;t answer you . Sorry.

Sorry for all the things I've done . Towards you. I really hate making mistakes cause, I don't know how to put my words to apologise to you . My wrong doings made us apart, apart from everything . I looked in the mirror and saw a monster, a monster that I wished could turn into a fairy which could undo my wrong doings. Instead, I kept in silence and didn't apologise. I really wished I never had done or say that. . I know, sorry's not good enough to patch back our friendship. But, that's all I've got .

I'm sorry .

Weird, I know.